My whole life all I ever wanted was to have a family with lots of kids but 10.5 years ago I quickly realized that might not be my reality. For 10.5 years we have struggled with “unexplained infertility.” We have had test after test, procedure after procedure, we have seen doctor after doctor only to be told the same thing over and over again, “I just don’t have an answer to why you aren’t getting pregnant.”

After 6.5 years of infertility, we realized that adoption was where the Lord was leading us and man was His plan bigger and better than anything we could have ever dreamed. (If you don’t know Hazels story, you need too).

Fast forward almost 2 years and again, the Lord was loud and clear that adoption was calling us again. And what do you know, He did us once and now He had done it twice. Two BEAUTIFUL miracles just under two years apart from each other.

Two years later we started looking to grow our family again, this time we wanted to try one more time with infertility treatments. So again we started with all the test and procedures to get answers but this time was different, this time it seemed that there were some answers, this time there was hope. After 9 years of infertility, our dream of being pregnant was finally going to come true, hearing that the doctor felt confident that he could get us pregnant was an UNBELIEVABLE emotion that we never thought we would have. IVF was our answer and we couldn’t be more excited.

As the weeks and months went by and we hit roadblock after roadblock, we started to have more and more questions about different things along the way. It seemed like we would move forward but the door would close right in front of us. Over and over again we both felt that we were pushing our way through the door but the Lord was clearly not opening it for us. How could this be? After almost 10 years of not having answers, we were finally having the opportunity to get pregnant but the Lord was telling us “no.” Does he not know what my heart desires? Does he not understand how badly I want to experience a pregnancy, how deeply I long to see those two lines on a pregnancy test, how much I want to feel a baby kick inside of me? Of course He does but Isaiah 55:8-9 says “My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts” says the Lord. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.” So we began to just pray that “Lord we may not understand your ways but we are obedient to your callings and if IVF is not your way for us, that’s ok and we will follow your calling.” As we started to let go of the possibility of IVF, the Lord is making it very clear that he is calling us to adoption again.

So here we are… the process of adoption number three is underway. We are beyond excited because we have seen miracle after miracle through adoption and we know how special adoption is. As we begin the adoption process with updating our home study paperwork, would you pray along side of us as we prepare our hearts for this new chapter. We are excited to take you along for another adoption journey with us.

Also, if you were so gracious to donating to our IVF fund, we are forever grateful for you. The funds we have left in that account will be used to help fund our adoption moving forward. Thank you for your continued support as we seek to grow our family.

– Kristen